March 16, 2015

I want to talk a bit about something that happened a couple of week ago because I feel like I've been trying to ignore it but I can't. Someone rather close to me passed away and it took everyone by surprise. I hope I'm not being too indiscreet if I tell you that this person was my ex's father. I know it may sound a bit strange when I say it like that but I really feel his loss deep in my heart. I feel extremely lucky to have had the chance to meet him and have shared amazing moments together. I remember in particular how he was always willing to help no matter what, the amazing dinner he prepared every sunday and that everyone enjoyed after church, how he called bebesas to his granddaughters, how he would cure everything with herbs and I feel very lucky that last year we happened to be together for my birthday. :)

I can't stop thinking about the last time we met. He was offering me a ride to the bus station and I don't know if it's my imagination but I felt like he wanted to tell me something or at least talk and catch up a bit. In the end someone else offered me a ride to a place that was closer to where I live and so we never got the chance to talk. I think I regret that and I hope there was a way to know if he actually wanted to say something. What was it? I think I have an idea, but well... we'll never know for sure. :(

Anyway. I don't want this to be a sad post. If anything I can only be extremely grateful for his unconditional love and care no matter the circumstances or the change of status. I knew I could always call for help if I needed it and being in a different country this is absolutely priceless. As well he knew they could count on me and this last time we talked we actually thanked each other for all the help and support. All my gratitude and love to this man and his family that in a way has become part of mine. That's it.

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